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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2006|01:59 am]
[PLAYING |IT ENDS TONIGHT - THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS]

I've been at somewhere else, for the past month or so, and I'm referring to another blog.

Guess I would wait a while more, before I do post the link up. Meanwhile, ask if you do want to know.

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

♥*tlp

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lying? yeah i am, [Aug. 28th, 2006|01:08 am]
[PLAYING |I'M NOT MISSING YOU -- STACIE ORRICO]

sleep deprived, yes, that's exactly what most people would feel now, all because of, project work. i mean, it ain't that bad after all, knowing that you're not the only one feeling that way. 

i should try, to stop falling asleep during lectures, even though they are just for a minute or less. so that i don't have to re-copy the notes when i accidentally scribble on the lecture notes while feeling drowsy. quite funny actually, to see how the handwriting changes, as the lecture progresses.

anyway, all been's alright, more or less, and i hope so, though deep down inside, some things just ain't. i'm looking forward to the college bowl this wednesday, then back to scgs on thursday, like finally, followed by the september holiday. it's time to get a break from the daily routine and tiring life of school, and well, there's WESTLIFE at the end of the week then. =)

congrats, the migraine is here.

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2006|01:57 am]
all i've got to say, CHEMISTRY IS FREAKING HARD. =(

♥*tlp
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am i missing? [Aug. 20th, 2006|12:46 am]
[PLAYING |軌跡 -- 周杰倫]

is this bad or good? the cheeeena phase is hitting me back again, so much so that i've uploaded about 9 cheeeena albums, and created a 38 song cheeeena playlist, which includes a few jap and korean songs. someone, HIT ME!!! 

okay, i mean it ain't that bad after all, cause having gone through that phase, it benefitted me quite abit, especially with my perspective of chinese, and to be able to have enjoyed the mando craze, chasing after 5566 in the maxi cabs and the long-queued autograph session, without forgetting the very "high" concerts. if someone were to ask me, what was one of the more daring things that i've done, i would definitely describe the first autograph session which i went to back in 2004, i had actually cut queue, right infront of a police women keeping the crowd in control. alright, so it ain't really such a big deal after all. but, who cares?

another thing, i actually spent my saturday afternoon watching re-runs, or rather the recorded dvds of sg idol one. i fastforwarded most of the performances, and listened to the comments, watched the results show. then i watched the opening match of epl, it was so fast-paced, that i fell asleep halfway through the first half. ok, no link there.

and finally, third night to sleep before one am, definitely.

yeah,

♥*tlp
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thank you. [Aug. 17th, 2006|11:32 pm]
his entry is specially dedicated to Steven Kwok, aka ~199.



♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2006|11:35 pm]
[PLAYING |BIG BIG WORLD -- EMILIA]

well, there were lots of la-la-las in school today, a few of them in class went crazy la-ing over jason mraz's life is wonderful, and it led on to even more singing during the breaks. reminiscing the boyband era songs that included WESTLIFE with queen of my heart, bsb's i want it that way, bbmak's ghost of you and me, a1's like a rose with ben's squeaky voice and his curtains; to the max 6 cd which had mambo no. 5 and WESTLIFE'S SWEAR IT AGAIN; and went on even further back to BEST 99 cd which had songs like vengaboy's boom boom boom, butterfly, barbie girl, tarzan and jane, CALCUTTA, and there' this song which keeps going horny too. then we started thinking of other songs by asking people to give random words, and we had BIG, so naturally, everyone thought of this song, which kept playing in the hk serial police investigation files IV.

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I have your arms around me warm like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much...

note to wonder: hey, do you rmb we were talking bout this song back then, well, not too long ago actually. it's a lil dejavu, haha, get what i mean?

♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 12th, 2006|12:36 am]
[PLAYING |WITHOUT YOUR LOVE -- 5566]

yay!!! i'll be able to sleep before one today. =)

anyway, check out my class blog, which i just uploaded some photos.

♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2006|09:16 pm]
[PLAYING |冷風過境 -- 5566]

i've been a little lagged in my updating, so this is somehow a summary of what happened the past few days.

tuesday: national day celebration in school ended presumbly early. the class, or rather, the whole school was getting quite high during the singing of the national day songs. had subway with hannah and peirong, the delicious ITALIAN BREAD. haha. hannah and i then went to meet brenda, and we just met tons and tons of people. but the most high was when we met CLARA. ah, we were all screaming and hugging. and it went on with meeting dot, junying, a few others, and also charissa whom i haven't seen for coming to three years. went home slightly before evening, and attended lynette's surprise birthday dinner at brewerkz, it's quite a cool place. after dinner, had a lil heart-to-heart chat with mel, and she really knows how to cheer me up.

wednesday: woke up considerably late, had late lunch and went down to eunos mrt to meet oneSAthree. we took a bus down to joel's house and waited one and a half hour for our californian pizza. watched the parade while waiting, and some of us actually ran out barefooted to catch a glimpse of the fireworks. celebrated yinzhen's birthday at the same time. then came home after catching singapore idol.

today: training in the morning, and lunch at the nice tcc at bugis, and back home.

anyway i've been wanting to type this down. somehow new resolution kind of thing.
1. to do my work faithfully, like REALLY FAITHFULLY.
2. get an all b grade at least, HOEPFULLY.
3. train hard, for bowling, cause it's gonna be the last nationals that i'll be playing, i guess.
4. be NICE.
5. [edit at 1217am] TO TRY TO SLEEP BEFORE ONE AM EVERYDAY, HAHA.

and just a small lil wish to be granted for me, please?

just excuse the chinese, haha.

真的無法改變了嗎　你撥開我的手掌　看著遠方　宣告了放棄
真的徹底忘記了嗎　你賴著我的胸膛　反覆的唱　永遠在一起
冷風過境　吹亂心情　露出了傷心　我有　多麼傷多麼痛　你不會相信
冷風過境　吹動記憶　心無法痊癒　等待　多麼苦多麼難　你忘了約定
真的無法再改變嗎　你有了新的方向　不再勉強　擦掉了過去
真的已徹底忘記嗎　你給過我的信仰　共同分享　永遠的意義
冷風過境　吹亂心情　露出了傷心　我有　多麼傷多麼痛　你不會相信　
冷風過境　吹動記憶　心無法痊癒　等待　有多苦有多難　夢何時會醒

♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 6th, 2006|09:31 pm]
[PLAYING |FOR YOU -- 5566]

i just felt like it, so i actually digged out 5566 Second Album and uploaded it all into my itunes, and started listening to it. and it does indeed brings back all the crazy idol-chasing memories, where i was totally crazy over 5566, can't believe i actually went through that phase. but well, guess what?

WESTLIFE'S COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!
and i've got ROW 2 tickets!!! woohoo. and it's just bout another three weeks more!

am so so happy that i get to see them nearer now, thought the concert back in 2001 was the first and last time i would see them, from a 100m distance away. but well. it's going to be less than 10m this time. =)

♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Aug. 5th, 2006|01:57 am]
[PLAYING |IT'S YOU -- RYAN CABRERA]

how hard is it, to actually get what you want, or wish for? is it all worth it, to put in so much effort, so much of our time, all in the hope of getting what we want or wish for? 

well, sooner or later, we seem to get tired with it, in working towards all these. but somehow, it does comes backs, leaving you to wonder about all these thoughts and harbour the same hope again. having to think through so much, does indeed makes one feel tired, and i guess no one is an exceptional case. 

you know, i think i'm tired, physically, and not so much mentally, after having gone to sleep after 2am each day, and waking up at 6am for a long day of school. even the small naps didn't help much. and i do feel cold right now, definitely ain't hoping for the arrival of a fever. i'm gonna sleep, and i wll.

the time is slow and i am sinking
into a hole blackened with lies
and though i made it myself
you stand watching as my life passes me by


♥*tlp
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I'm standing before you, with this label on my head [Aug. 1st, 2006|12:52 am]
[PLAYING |IT'S YOU -- RYAN CABRERA]

i told myself that i will put it down here, because i felt enlightened by it. thanks anyway erwin, you did made me realise quite a few things today.

so there were discussion bout hiding feelings, pretending that everything is alright when it ain't; generalisation of thinking in a simple way and thinking too much; in-sensitiveness and oversensitiveness; religion issues; and the general three levels people categorise their choice in relationship. arh well, i don't exactly know how to describe the last point. shall just see if anybody actually gets it.


ok this seems a little not elaborated enough, but i tried my best in expressing what i thought i should and what i feel. so i just hope that people do get it? haha.

I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand

♥*tlp

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I'm pleading before you, for you to understand [Jul. 30th, 2006|11:46 pm]
[PLAYING |IT'S YOU -- RYAN CABRERA]

Another night goes by without sleeping
'Cause I know I won't wake up next to you
Another life goes by without dreaming
And I can't help but think that mine will too

I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand

Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you

The time is slow and I am sinking
Into a hole blackened with lies
And though I made it myself
You stand watching as my life passes me by

I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand
How much I adore you
I'll be there till the end
When everything falls down
Will you hold my hand

Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you

Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you




♥*tlp
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(no subject) [Jul. 30th, 2006|02:17 am]
[PLAYING |HOLLY WOOD DIED -- YELLOWCARD]

didn't spend my saturday with work, but it was still quite wisely. haha.

bugis was nice, ok not in that way, but i enjoyed going there today. late lunch at tcc, with the nice cushion seats, and the look-small portioned food, and nice drinks. and to bugis street, which so resembles the japanese street style shops. bought nothing except a hairband, which i'm satisfied, it's only FIVE DOLLARS!!! and i like it. and the dresses there, ok, they ain't the kind of usual clothes that i'll wear, but i was so tempted to buy without even considering if i would wear it. thinking bout it now, i think i really should go back there and buy.

ooh, and the pedestrian crossing between parco bugis junction and bugis street is so so weird, a bunch of more than 50 people would be trapped in the middle of the pedestrian crossing, and some sort of human jam just takes place there, right in between two places. i took photo of it but i just realised i accidentally deleted it.

and it was oneSAthree dinner at fish&co. we had ten percent, all thanks to anli, who was actually working her last day there. but well, we had an enjoyable dinner. neoprint at fareast print club, can't believe we actually went to take. lots of screaming in the machine though, just the nine of us.





and now i'm back home, deciding if i should get the bag charm i saw during my online lj shopping hunt just now.


♥*tlp

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if only things were simple-R [Jul. 29th, 2006|01:19 am]
[PLAYING |MARTIN SHEEN OF JFK -- YELLOWCARD]

things are starting to look good, it seems. erm, well, project work is getting quite taxing, squeezing so much of our brain juice out, haha.

and yeah, weekend to be spent, wisely though. haha

All the days since I've landed
I lost the way to find my truth
You float away and leave me stranded
What's left to say I'll hurt for you.

I'm taking them all, taking them all back for good
To a place where I know that I'm safe.
Then I can fall, then I could fall where I should
In this bottle with all my mistakes.

i like yellowcard too. =)

♥*tlp

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LET'S GET THESE TEEN HEARTS BEATING FASTER, FASTER [Jul. 25th, 2006|12:48 am]
[PLAYING |LYING IS THE MOST FUN A GIRL CAN HAVE... -- P!ATD]



what a freaky video, if i may say so, interesting still, though.

don't the fishes stink? haha, try living in a fish tank.

♥*tlp

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i ♥ fob [Jul. 20th, 2006|12:04 am]
[PLAYING |7 MINUTES IN HEAVEN [ATAVEN HALEN] -- FALL OUT BOY]

and yeah, i do ♥ fob, they make me happier than "westlife, panic!, dashboard, tbs, bsb, bbmak, matchbook, aar, jack's mannequin, relient k, yellowcard, lifehouse, 3 doorsdown, blue, finch, the used, sth corporate, ashley parker angel, juliana theory, daphne loves derby, a&a, cute., anberlin, the fray...or whatever it is" do.

and i can't believe i just typed all these all.

ah, how stupid can i get at times. haha,

"I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down"

♥*tlp

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(no subject) [Jul. 18th, 2006|11:24 pm]
[PLAYING |HOW TO SAVE A LIFE -- THE FRAY]

THE FRAY   THE FRAY   THE FRAY!!!

haha, alright, guess it's obvious i'm on the craze, thanks marc, or greg, haha.

 and arh, heard the song on radio yesterday, over my head, which so shouldn't be played there, i think.

but anyway, here's the link for the video

[over my head - the fray]

and their live singing is good, which makes me want to get back to the piano, to learn how to play it.

[over my head (live) - the fray]

ooh, pirates with hannah and brendada tmr, haven't seen my teddy bear for so so long!!!

eh, and give no shit bout my previous entry, haha.

♥*tlp

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good good, now we're making some progress [Jul. 18th, 2006|12:54 am]
[PLAYING |I WRITE SINS NOT TRAGEDIES -- PANIC! AT THE DISCO]

erm, it's freaky, like scary, to see how vulnerable people are, or rather the world is.

and insecurities, seem to haunt people, making them vulnerable? okay, it's not quite making sense, but argh, i don't exactly know what i'm thinking. erh, maybe there's some things that i should not have bothered to look at, like i just did, or to find out more about, 'cause it just seems to add on to my vulnerabilitly, and the insecurities, that i have?

maybe, if you do get what i mean.

ain't it freaky? haha.

♥*tlp

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it's not okay, but we're alright. [Jul. 17th, 2006|12:47 am]
[PLAYING |EMOTIONLESS -- GOOD CHARLOTTE]

i wish i could, i wish i could pretend it's all alright, and be strong, like how i've been, or used to be.

but sometimes, it just gets too hard, it really is. each time, it just keeps on adding, pressing it down further and further, not knowing how long more it can be controlled. and just once, it's enough to explode and hurt and scar badly. who's able to control and take all this in, tell me?

i don't think that i can pretend it's gonna be alright anymore, who is, exactly?

i do wish that i was stronger, just like how it seems to appear as. deep down, it seems so unpredictable. 

i wish, everything was alright.

help me with my pw grp's survey please?
[here]

i'm still lost and hurt and bone thin from the love that's been starved.

[edit: my house is was, bee-infested, ahah.]

♥*tlp

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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2006|01:08 am]
[PLAYING |EMOTIONLESS -- GOOD CHARLOTTE]

i'm happy, yeah, i am, or rather, i feel a sense of achievement, suddenly. =)

helped the class with the presentation slide for our class-initiated cip at kdf, and i spent three hours on it, right after i was done watching singapore idol. and i'm really glad with how the slides turn out. has been quite some time that i have worked on a presentation using powerpoint, and i really do love powerpoint, haha. 

and guess what, the song fits perfectly into the presentation, the timing. thought it wouldn't because the duration of the song was bout 20 seconds longer. but the song ended somehow right on the dot when the slides end and the song goes into really soft music at the last 20 seconds, so IT FITS!!! and thanks alice alba[august.], for sending me the song after arguing what song to put for two days, and i like the song.  ah, finally, can't believe i'm actually feeling high about this. haha

well, just hope all goes well when the presentation is showed to the school, and the song works well. if not, argh.


 before i forget, i ♥ oneSAthree06 =)

♥*tlp

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